Just imagine there was an act you could do for your child,the best thing possible.This would cause him to get sick less,less colic,reduce the risk for SIDS,give him a special bond that would last a lifetime, and the list could go on.Just imagine what this could do for you! It can help you lose weight!Not have a period!And most of all,give you the satisfaction of being thee best mom you could be..

Any reasonable mother,would do this right?


Wrong. Only 36 percent of moms breastfeed till 6 months,and even less breastfeed for the full year.Even though American Academy of Pediatrics recommends breastfeeding through the first year.

So my question is why?Why don't women try to breastfeed their children?Why don't they stick it out?If nothing else,why not just pump?

I understand that nursing a child is hard work. I also understand there may be health,medication reasons why mom,and baby can not do this.By no means am I saying moms who don't breastfeed their baby are horrible. I also understand people who admittedly try but just can't. I am just so sick and tired of moms not giving it a chance.It doesn't make sense to me.It is the best for your baby,you were made,and designed to do this...but won't? I hear all the time of mom's who can't find a formula to fit their baby's needs,but never tried breast milk.

I was lucky enough to grow up in a 'pro breastfeeding family'. My mother nursed all 5 of us,for over our year marker,and some even a year and a half.My sisters did as well when they had their children.The act of breastfeeding has never 'weirded' me out. I do understand some women,it makes them feel uneasy.

Then why not pump?

Also,I think it is wrong for women to be on programs such as WIC,who never tried to breastfeed.Its not right you just assumed a government program would help you out,so you choose not to.If you can't afford formula on your own...well...there is something you make for free!!!

I know this post is going to piss people off,and I don't care. Good parenting starts at the beginning,and just simply 'not wanting' to give your child the best,isn't a good parent in my eyes.

(Just for the record I strictly breastfeed my daughter 14 1/2 months,and plan to do the same with my son)

My plate is full.I am starting to feel this huge overwhelming feeling. I am sitting here alone because Michael is on a work-up before his deployment.I hate the feelings I have with all of this.I feel like I want to be selfish with him and sometimes,I'll admit, I feel like the Marine Corps is before me.I am proud of him though,he is defending our country and helping people who need to be helped.I just wish he could do that and be with Emma and I at the same time.I have no ideal how she is going to handle being away from him.She walks around the house and says 'dadadadada' or 'me dada?' I try to explain to her but only being a year and a half..that can only go so far.Plus I  dread the fact of having this baby without him.

To top it all of my parents are divorcing,after 22 years.My dad keeps calling me up,crying and I feel so bad that I am not there to help him.Its so bizarre,I wished for all of my childhood that they would leave each other and now that it happened,I want nothing to do with it.I mean,only until the past 5 months have I actually l cared about my own father,so to have him call me is so weird.Learning to love him has been an experience in itself.I have always hated him and he has hated me,and believe me he did, he told me several times...my nose still isn't the same from that argument.Its just hard to hear him so broken.


Ahhh.....Good news, I can feel the baby move more :)

"whos ideal was this again?"-me

"Yours honey"-Husband

Dealing with Hyperemesis Gravidarum  with baby number two is no fun.I need to count my blessings though,I actually found median that works now and unlike Emma,I don't have a feeding tube down my nose.I have lost 16 lbs though and the comments are getting old.

"your losing way too much weight"
"are you eatting?"

I wish some people knew what it was like to go through what I have to in order to have another child.I really wanted another baby but had forgotten all this lol. I know it will be worth it in the end though when I see that little person.I just feel so utterly stressed sometimes.I am not use to having ZERO energy to do things,especially cleaning and cooking.My husband,even though I don't tell him enough,has stepped up to the plate and helps me out so much.I feel terrible that he isn't going to be here to see the baby be born and miss out on its first 3 months due to a deployment to Afganistan for 6 months.Ahhh, thats another blog entry.

I just can't wait to get this first trimester bull overwith so I can regain energy and not be as sick as I am.Also,on a funnier note,I keep telling Emma that 'mama has a baby in her belly' and now she thinks she has one in hers and even tries to feed her stomach her milk tippy.